So i'm back at school once again and i'm rooming with Julianne Fullmer, Ali Sharp, Jayme, Lacy, and Mckenzie. They're all great!! its refreshing too since we're all older and they're all Seniors and i'm a junior, so that's a nice mix up! me being the youngest is a rarity.
School started out great! different but great. I love all my classes because they're all fun and pertain to what i came to school for rather than General classes you have to suffer through;) funny thing is that my schedule happens to leave me with a lot of extra time on my hands....which i manage to fill with very little homework (count my blessings right?!), naps, netflix, and a casual social scene. Funny thing is i still feel like i have time on my hands but i'm learning to make the best of it! The fact that i don't have as many go-to friends up here at the moment nudges me to work on making new friends, and since all my roommates are generally pretty busy i'm on my own. So it has been a great learning experience so far.
Today i was talking with my department head professor and he helped me figure out my life. Which is great news! Funny fact about me that someone pointed out to me recently is that i frequently say "I don't know my life." Usually i say it sarcastically when someone asks me what my plans are for the night and i'm not sure...I don't know my life. or even when people start discussing my future plans....I don't know my life. So i say it sarcastically but the problem is real people. I don't know my life! i mean i have ideas...and dreams...and hopes of how things will work out. But its just not super clear on how i'm going to get there or on the details. Anyway, talking to Brother Romney he talked me through all the different options i have with school. Its a little stressful since i'm limited on the time i have to finish my minor in culinary arts so i have to crack the whip on that. But i also have lots of classes to finish with floral design and the scheduling of those classes are super whacky. To simply sum it up, planning all my classes is beyond stressful since i'm extremely limited in my options as to times required classes are offered and they overlap each other....so it takes a lot of planning which usually goes wasted since they are constantly switching requirements and how things work every year. PLUS i have to fit in an internship somewhere in there. and that takes a lot of planning since i want to find a good internship that is available at a time when i am free to go do it. And then comes the issue of actually getting "hired" or accepted to that internship. soooooo all in all i am just a little STRESSED as to how it will all work out because it is so UNKNOWN. The future is scary and you do your best to plan it out but plans always change and in a round about way it is always for the best.
That is something i realized today. I have had all this down time the past several months/couple years that i will admit i have felt a little like a failure if i compare to where i had hoped to be at this time to where i really am. But i realized this time has allowed me to figure out what i really want because i know if i had gotten married at an earlier age like some friends i know i wouldn't be pursuing these hobbies and talents. But you know what? I LOVE the potential i have right now. It is so motivating. I mean in reality, my options of where i end up are endless and totally up to me. That whole Faith thing is crucial at this opportune time in my life.
I have no idea if that makes any sense since it barely makes sense in my head. Today was a day where i had an appreciation to God for putting me where i am right now and i have a feeling that some amazing opportunities that i can barely fathom are up His sleeve.
"God is making things happen for you. Even when you don't see it, even when you can't feel it, even if it's not evident...God is working on your prayers."
//Pray Always//
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